Onesines, Diapers and Wipes Oh My!

I have a baby shower this weekend back home. This is the last weekend I can fly so that's why its so early. Some gifts have started to come in and it is making it all very real. My husband and I even went this weekend and got some diapers and wipes, just in case (I like to be prepared).

We finished our birthing classes this weekend and took the maternity tour. I feel very good that I'm delivering at that hospital. They answered all my questions in the way I'd hoped and seem very nice.

Since I'll be 31 full weeks Wednesday, it's only single digits in terms of weeks to go. That's a little scary but exciting at the same time. One of my friends just gave birth last Sunday and another just found out she was pregnant. I am so happy for both of them. I'm becoming such a sap that I get teary over these things now.

I'll write back about the shower next week!

I Passed!!!!

I just got the message from my doctor's office. I passed the 3 hour test, I don't have gestational diabetes!!!!!! What a relief.

The good that came out of this is that now I'm going to watch what I eat more carefully. I wasn't being that bad before but there was room for improvement. I'm lucky to have another chance to keep things on track.

I also had my foot doctor appointment this morning. My foot is still swollen and I have to wear the boot for another two weeks. He said it would probably be 6 weeks minimum and I'm at three weeks now. It could be much worse so I'm not complaining!

Failure

I knew it. I knew I wouldn't' pass the one hour glucose test. I have a family history of diabetes and I've never been able to say no to sweets. Plus, other than walking, I'm not that active. I have to schedule the 3 hour test now. I will probably be able to take it in the next few days.

I am so upset right now. I even cried at my desk, which is something I never do. I am worried I will not pass the 3 hour test, that the baby will be hurt, that I'll have to be induced early and maybe have a C-Section and lastly that I won't be able to eat sweets anymore. I am terrified that I will develop Type II diabetes later in life due to this. I read a statistic that said 50-60% of women who had gestational diabetes developed Type II within 10 years of giving birth. I gave away my stash of candy that I kept at my desk just now and it makes me sad thinking about another life change.

I don't want to deal with more change right now and I'm really worried that I have messed things up with my pregnancy. I'm sorry son, mommy already hurt you = (

Beauty is in the Eye of the Mother

I've always said that all babies are ugly when born and even for the first few weeks of their lives. They are all red and scrunchy looking (is that even a word?). My husband and I are even going to wait 2 weeks before we take a picture to use for the baby announcements. I've NEVER seen a good picutre taken the day of the birth. I told people I know my baby will be ugly when he is born because ALL babies are. People would say, it will be different with yours and you will think he is beautiful.

I think they are right. The more I bond with the baby boy in my belly the more sure I am that yes, he will be beautfil to me. No matter how red or scrunchy he is, no matter how pointy his head might be, I will think he is the most beautiful thing I've even seen. Darn it, I hate it when other people are right = )