Selfish & Obviously an Only Child

Let me preface this entry by saying that I was unsure if I should write this. It makes me look like a terrible person. However, I don't want to censor myself and hey, I'm only human....

I finally told work I was pregnant. They took it really well. Now everyone is asking how I'm doing and being especially nice to me. I love it! The office took up a collection for the last person who had a baby and gave her a gift card at a mini shower. It was very nice. I found out another girl at work is pregnant. I was actually irritated. I want to be the center of attention. She is only two weeks behind me and has only worked here for no more than two months. I've been with this company for over 3 years. I bet they will give us a combined shower. People may not give as much as they would have before now that two collections will be taken up. Even worse if they take up one collection and split it between us. I was honestly counting on gifts to help us get some of the stuff we need.

Go ahead, say it. I'm a terrible person. She is very nice but I feel like she is taking something away from me. I know my feeling stem from not getting enough attention as a child but it still doesn't change the way I feel. At least writing it down helped a little.

Week 13

I start week 13 today. Once this week is over, I'll be in my second trimester. I had my second appointment last week. I was disappointed because I didn't get to hear the heartbeat or see a detail picutre. The sonagram was pretty fuzzy but I could definitely see the outline of the baby. I also saw the heartbeat again and saw the baby move. I go for the detailed ultrasound where they check for Down's next Monday. I can't wait to get those pictures. They may even be able to tell the gender.

My headaches are gone and I'm not as tried anymore. However, I'm starting to show so I better tell work soon. Some people have probably noticed by now anyway. I still this its a boy. I had a sign that I have more testerone in me. I'm not sharing here becuase it's gross. Of course, my husband thought it was funny. At least he is understanding!

I'll more next week after my appointment.