Full Term

As of today, I am officially full term, or 37 weeks. This pregnancy has passed by so quickly. I have a feeling that the last few weeks will go by more slowly though. I don't sleep and I'm uncomfortable most of the time. So now that I finally want the baby to go ahead and get here, I have to wait a little longer.

I had to go to the hospital on Monday. I thought I was leaking fluid. It was scary to have to go there. It was a false alarm and my cervix isn't open at all. I've never been in the hospital overnight except when I was born. I never knew how uncomfortable the beds were. It's terrible.

People keep asking me if I'm ready. How do you answer that question? Technically, I have everything I need. Mentally, I am in denial. Emotionally, well that depends on when you ask me. Some minutes I'm so excited and other I'm terrified. I guess its normal. I can't believe that I am going to have a child. Someone if going to give me a baby to take home and I'm responsible for them.

So many changes are going to happen after the baby comes. Right now, I'm pretty self centered. My husband and I do things when we want and don't have to consider others. Now, though, even small things like going to the rest room when I want are gone. I have to take more breaks and go easier on myself. This is a good thing and I have to just relax and go with the flow.

This may just make me a better person or either drive me insane. We'll have to wait and see.